48/365: This is Me

Lately, I have been feeling defeated, exhausted, spent, done, however you can describe this emotional roller coaster that I have been on. I am not looking forward to the deployment schedule Jason has for the rest of the year. I am not looking forward to the single mom routine, the lonely nights, the kids who cry because they miss their Daddy. I know that this is his job. I know that I "signed up" for this when we got married. I know that it's my responsibility to take care of things while he is gone. But, it is never easy.

I have loved our time on this island. I have loved the exploring that we've done. But, I would give so much to be able to see my family when I want to. I would love to be able to escape the deployments while spending time with my loved ones. It's just not a realistic option to fly home from Japan while he is gone.

So, I will be putting on my Big Girl Panties and counting down the days until he gets home.